There is nothing glamorous about the life of a drunk. It is heartbreaking to watch people destroy their lives this way. What could possibly be driving them to act like this? Where is the attraction? Are they just mad? Those people who have never falling into addiction may well find it hard to understand – you would need to have been there.
Being a Drunk Once Made Sense to Me
When I first began abusing alcohol in my teens it made perfect sense. I was shy and awkward, but this amazing chemical filled me with confidence and made it easy to be around people. Before finding alcohol my life was full of emotions that often felt unbearable but alcohol took all that away. When I first started drinking it really did seem to be the answer to all my problems, and for a long time it did seem to be working.
Those of us who fall into addiction are often doing so as a form of self-medication. Some of us are feeling the first effects of mental illness but find that alcohol brings some relief. The rest of us are just bored or uncomfortable with life and again alcohol helps fix this. The reason why people choose alcohol is that in the beginning it really does work.
Waiting for the Good Drinking Days to Return
By the time the disadvantages of alcohol outweighed he benefits I was already hooked mentally and physically. I could see how alcohol was destroying my life, but I felt powerless to quit. I also hoped that the good drinking days would return again if I just found the right combination of circumstances. I spent decades looking for the perfect bar, perfect place to live, and perfect job. Despite many attempts I was never able to make alcohol work for me again. By the time that I accepted that there was not one ounce of enjoyment left in booze I had lost almost everything.
I believe that a lot of those who become drunks do so because they are convinced that alcohol will make life easier to cope with. It is only when they fully accept that this drug can no longer do this that they can finally escape addiction.